Welcome to another episode of the Let’s Talk series where I go a little deeper than clothes and home décor and share what has been on my mind and heart with you. My hope is that you find that we are very much alike and that you are not alone. I like to count you as my friend and this is something that I would share with a friend for encouragement.
I have been going through a season where I am rewriting my story. I am rewriting what I think I am and what I think I am not. Things that I believe I am not capable of and different narratives I have in my head about who I am. These are things that I wrote on my life story in permanent marker and thought that they could never be erased or even revised. Things that I tell myself that I can’t do or things that I feel are not meant for me.
I am not really talking about originality or preferences. I am talking more about abilities, skills, talents, and characteristics that I think I have or that I think I cannot have.
I am a pragmatic, type A, dominant personality (insert sarcasm here…“Karen, what? You, no! I would have never guessed” lol). There are things about my personality that I love like taking initiative, being decisive and being determined, but there are also things that I constantly have to work on like impatience and sensitivity. These are traits of my personality that make me who I am. I am not really talking about this either when I say I am rewriting my story. There are things I wrote a long time ago like…
If I take a risk I know I will fail
I am lazy and undisciplined
I’m always going to be second best
I am always self-conscious
and the list goes on…
The truth is, I made those things up! They’re not true. I assume that because I took one risk and failed that I will always fail. I think that I am lazy because I don’t know how to rest so when I am resting I take that as being lazy because I always feel like I need to be busy. I am disciplined and responsible and in fact that is what I have been described as by former bosses. There are no ‘second bests’ in real life. This isn’t a sport or competition where there is 1st, 2nd and 3rd place. Why would I even feel like that! I am not always self-conscious, I am confident and know my strengths and weaknesses and work through my insecurities.
Write a list of things that you think you are and are not. Then, rewrite your story. You can and it is possible. Be encouraged to take on this task and find freedom in rewriting the narrative you play in your head. It’s liberating! I am not fully there yet but I know I will get there.
Accept the challenge. Leave me a comment. What are some things that you can rewrite?
Love you always,