Happy birthday to me! Wow, I cannot believe I am 25 today. I remember being 16 and thinking 25 year old’s were so old and cool. I definitely feel old, but not that cool haha jk I’m pretty cool. I feel incredibly grateful and blessed to turn a year older, be a year wiser, and to have learned the lessons I did this past year. There were many goals that I set for myself this year that I accomplished and some that I continue to work on but overall I feel that 24 has been my best year yet. I know that 25 will be even better.
Here are my top 5 lessons learned this past year.
- “Get Over Yourself Karen” – Gosh this year I finally learned how to get over myself and be brave. There were so many insecurities that held me back for so long that I felt like I was living my life trying to fit in the mold that I made for myself (if you have read my blog post, “How to Rewrite Your Story” you know a little bit about what I am talking about). I have learned that anytime I feel insecure about my body, my appearance, my personality, or my weaknesses, I say to myself “Get over yourself Karen no one cares”. Obviously, I continue to learn and grow in this area but I feel like I have won more than half the battle already.
- I Am Not Old – I think that I set very high expectations for myself at times because I crave greatness. I believe in myself. I know what I am capable of. This is a strength in my character but can definitely be a double edged sword. I put way too much pressure on myself to figure it out and know what I want and when I want it. This past year, I vividly remember at least 4 times when I cried so hard because I didn’t know what I was doing with my life and that I was already 24 years old and had no idea where I was going. This is so silly but I am being super honest. I still don’t really know but I have decided to chill out, not freak out about it, and most importantly trust the Lord’s plan for my life.
- Have Fun – This one is probably my favorite. I have learned that having fun IS the most important thing. Sure I know what you’re thinking, “But Karen life is not always fun”. I totally understand that but what is life if you can’t have fun and not take life so seriously? This year we went to Disney World and had the most fun ever running around the park in Minnie ears, eating, meeting Disney princesses, and waiting hours in line just to get on a 2 minute ride (totally worth it) was the most fun I had ever had. This next year, fun will be a priority and I do not have to go to Disney to have fun. I can take joy in the little things. In the every day tasks, there is something to be happy about.
- Embrace the Unexpected – AH! This one is so hard because I am a psycho control monster. This year I have learned to at least try and give it my best shot to embrace the unexpected circumstances in life. To take a step back and redirect my perspective and let God be the leader of my life.
- Stop Comparing – This year it finally hit me that all my insecurities and doubts about myself come from comparison. I am so done. Comparison is sad. I cannot compare someone else’s life with mine because it’s not fair. It’s not fair to think that I should be somewhere or doing something that someone else has worked hard for. Everyone is on their own journey and comparing myself to others only discredits mine.
I really loved reflecting on this past year and putting together this post. There’s a new excitement in my life as I get older and I become more and more confident in myself and in who I am. Growing older can be scary, but I choose to grow up with an expectant heart knowing that God is not done with me.
Thank you so much for reading and I hope you are enjoying the holidays.